untitled 2011

people come, people go.
every chances come,
and i just let go.
it was just not like being told
but its what i have known

you passed by me so swiftly,
without making a sound, and
i just ignore silently.
my heart was like just broken into pieces.
tears, angers, madness.
arent you being serious?

Last day of the year,
i fill it with my tears
being reminded what happened this year,
Thats alright, i aint fear.

Emoer

There's a feeling with me,
complicated one,
playing in my mind.
its like rolling in the deep in my heart.

I am now in a stormy ocean,
awe-inspiring wave laps my heart,
and my heart is eroded.
Sorrows washed even deeper.

There's a tornado inside me.
It swirls up the pains and madness.
It encircles sadness and sorrows,
which has been buried deep within.

The feelings are like lighting,
strike right on top of my head.
My body is numb,
my heart is palsied,
my mind screwed up.

I m now in a dark room,
where there's no light.
i shout, i groan.
i got no response.

Isnt life is beautiful ?
Indeed, because of God.

But theres only darkness now.
wheres my light? wheres my pride?
God, please show me the way.

11-14

thats right, my big day!
so? lol
birthday ended up in staying overnight in college studio, burn midnight oil... ...

no big deal, just a anniversary anyway :)
two consecutive years though.

Last year, i got a new set of curtain from mom, from sabah LOL
Pure white curtain, it just match my lil room :D
my mom knew me well. love ya, mom!

this year, hehe, imma wanting a new phone - galaxy note!!!
EXCITED!

5.3" super HD amoled screen, i just love it!

with its S Pen, i can now do anything with it too! hehe

hell yeah! its also available in white!! 

imma waiting for it :DDDDDDDDDDDD

On my birthday, 

i received hundreds of birthday wishes on facebook.

aww, thats sweet!

really appreciate it! 

i had a great day! thank you all :)

my 20th birthday wishes :

- healthy and wealthy ( for my family and buddies )

- be successful in my future 

- no more am chong :D

- better EQ control

- more confident 

enough, i aint greedy haha!

NOT THE SAME KIND

Sorry to end our friendship in such a way

we arent belong to the same kind, honestly.

i had enough of it.

imma kinda pissed off

and you ruined my day.

i do appreciate your help and advises 

imma glad to know you in my life

but things turned out meaning less as the way you despised people, as well as me.

perhaps your right, 

i cant bear the critiques and the way how people look down at me

so we arent belong to the same kind.

God created human with 5 fingers in a hand in different length

it reflects human being that we arent born perfect

a community is composed by different kind of people,

everyone posses different professions 

and this is what we call balance.

In 10 years time,

am probably 29 years old,

and lets see....

Imma not that clever yet rich to pursue my study in such classy and expensive top school,

but i believe that ones thought is more important than any others.

Ones may be poor to pursue education, but never be ceased to be ambitious.

am a small guy with great ambition

no explanation, time proves. 

good memories will be kept in my heart forever.

love ya, L.

Home sweet home

awwww
i am finally not-that-busy

have been two weeks
i never went home
dust were two-inch-thick
and hair were more than enough to sew a cloth LOL

i spent two hours to got them clean
my room is blink blink now :D

two week, two weeks....
i  got home sick  :(
finally,
i can lie on my king bed for a good good night  KAKA

standing at the balcony
i just love to stare blankly at the night view of kl
enjoying crispy wind blowing through my face
have been a long while too
i miss the moment of silence and being so calm

Imma so excited about the study trip to the national islamic art museum!
i love islamic pattern much
the strong symmetry, repeating regular shapes, sharp edges and they merged well into a great facade.
hehe

ciao, gonna finish up to the latest episode in the great moment that i having
good day, people :)

Piano

Remembering that when i was at the age of 16,
i requested my mom saying that i want to learn piano.
Without thinking twice,  she agreed. :D

I had 9 piano teachers. awesome right? lol
When i first started as a beginner,
i start from the most basic skills and theory.
I bought a few books, which is for beginner
and they are specially made for like kindergarten kids.
super big note which blinds also can see them LOL
with decorations of cartoons , big sun flower, singing elephants in myraid colors.
Kids love they definitely,   but i just hate them, LOL

That was tough when i first begun to learn.
Imma kind of person who is so impatient,
the starting lesson was bored to the core,
i wish i could jump directly to play something which is hard for me. haha
Imma just the one who always take the challenges. :P

Oh well,
God is seeing from heaven.
He knows what i want :)
So later after few months, i met my teacher - miss Ho
Shes teaching musics in university, and shes the boss of the Yamaha music school i attended.
She was great, she sees the talent and the passion that i have in musics.
She did actually arrange me piano exam for me immediately once she took after me.
Soon, i got my grade 3 exam with ABRSM board within 3 months.

that was kinda tough to jump straight away to grade 3, but i really enjoy it,
I was the person who sits in front of the piano , playing songs without day and night.
I remembered that my parents scolded me
because i dont even want to eat when i was practicing my piano  ><

After that, she arranged me for another exam, grade 6!
i got only 3 months time to practice as well
because i m short of time.
i knew imma pursuing further education elsewhere after graduating from high school.
i practice hard on weekends, its like, day and night practicing non stop.

lets do the short cut, at last,
my teacher advise me to go for grade 8 exam.
oww, am i so talented? aahaha!
but i believe that ones can achieve anything as long as one pay for it.
i did practice hard, i deserve what i got.


Miss Ho sees how obsessed am i in musics,
shes kind of person who appreciate those who are talented , and thats me ;p
she did actually arranged me to a orchestra which is conducted by her too.
by that chance, i got my self a violin and learn by myself at home.
I joined the group on weekends to practice and learn new piece of music.
that was hard, i have had almost gave up since am a self learner. uhm

However, the passions that i have in musics drive me to do more practices.
Practices make perfect.
By time passes by, i got myself very stable skills. hehe

I even got the chance to do performances for both piano and violin after that.
Miss ho did actually arranged me in a competition,
a statewide music festival competition organized by Yamaha.
( i barely remember the name)
that was really awesome!

Aww, thats too much things which is so memorable.


well well well,
homework started to become heavier,
and i was chosen in the 'excellent students program'  in my high school.
stress!! i need to pay 100 % attention on my academic performance.
end of story :( sad

i love music, i love music instruments,
i wish i could have time somewhat later
to continue playing music instruments that i like :)

Yamaha white piano 

i want this one in KL! uhm :/

Tiffany Poon , 13

i wish i could have a chance later, to do a performance, a great one like hers on the stage! 

perhaps i should study music after my architorture ? 

STRESS

GROUP WORK - SITE ANALYSIS

IMMA SO STRESS, I WANT TO SHOUT MY LUNG OUT!
THE FEELING WHICH IS LIKE WE DO ACTUALLY WALK TO THE DEAD END,
I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP.

I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING...
I SAT ON THE BENCH OUTSIDE THE STUDIO,
MY MIND WAS BLANK.

TOO MUCH THINGS, AND THEY DEFINITELY MESSED UP MY MIND.
I GOT MIND FUCKED.

I M A HUMAN, I DO WHAT A HUMAN DOES.
I NEED SLEEP TOO!

DEAR MY GROUPMATES, FUCK YOU!!!!
ONLY TO THOSE WHO DONT HELP.